Life Update: Yoga Teacher Training and Chronic Pain
Hello! I have a big life update for ya! Next weekend I’ll be embarking on a 200 hour yoga teacher training - and I could not be more excited.
But obviously, with being chronically ill, this was a huge decision to make. For starters, I have no control of how my body is going to feel from day to day. Sometimes I feel like I can do a full day filled with work, hanging out with friends, going on a run, and finish it off with yoga and meditation. But other days, and more often than not, I feel like the absolute most I can do is to pull myself out of bed to work on the couch. So obviously, this decision came with risk about whether I’d physically be able to handle it. BUT, the timing just felt so right! I’ve been wanting to do the teacher training for quite a while, and now seemed like the perfect time to take the plunge:
For one, in my industry (I work in ad tech) the first half of the year is historically significantly slower than the second half. I was originally looking at trainings that started in September, but when I came across the Yogaworks training that is starting on March 30th I immediately felt like it would be a better fit than trying to fit it in during a busy time at work.
Also, while I am nervous about being able to manage chronic pain during an intensive training for the next 9 weeks, I also feel like I’m at the best place with my illness than I have ever been in before. My treatment, diet, and self care has helped me get to a spot where I have more energy on a more regular basis. This has made me more confident that I CAN make a 9 week commitment that is both physically and mentally demanding!
Finally, this has been something I’ve been talking about for a long time. All of my friends and family have heard me talk about “someday doing a yoga teacher training”. For a while my health has been holding me back from jumping in, but once I found this training, it was more of a mental struggle for me to sign up. I found myself making excuses because I was so scared!
Becoming healthier and having a bigger focus on wellness has been a passion of mine and it’s something I want to do more of and take more seriously. But, I let negative thoughts take over to tell me, “I’m not good enough at yoga to ever be a teacher,” “I’ll never make it through the training,” and “I’m an imposter for thinking I can join the wellness community”. At first, I was really holding on to these thoughts and letting them be excuses for why I shouldn’t sign up. But after talking it through with my parents and Carlos, I felt more validated - sometimes you just need an extra push for motivation from your loved ones! So, I am doing this to take charge of what I want to do in the future and take the first step towards manifesting what I envision!